Nerds unite.

Well, as of yesterday, I'm with Jared. Wha-hoo, am I right? Unfortunately, I feel as if I've betrayed Steph, no matter what anyone says. I mean, yeah, I am SUPER happy that I'm with him. He's so different and wonderful, and the fact that he makes me feel wonderful makes the whole thing even more wonderful. At the same time, it seems too good to be true. This kind of thing doesn't happen to me without mondo badness chasing it up. I guess I am afraid he's going to hurt me. I am afraid to completely trust anyone with my heart anymore. I know that I am freaking out about nothing, but before all this, I was at the point where I said "I don't need anyone", and now I am afraid of losing him. we haven't been together long enough for me to flip out yet; yet, there is something holding me back from bearing my soul to him completely. As much as I want to, someone is in the back of my mind whispering "he's gonna leave you, because you're not good enough". And I want to kill that voice.

Cap'n out.